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Tag: Authenticity

  • You Can’t Train a Model on a Voice You Never Built

    You Can’t Train a Model on a Voice You Never Built

    “Gemini, I have a paper due, can you tell me what is the importance of music in child education?” Gemini scours publicly available sources, returns a response on how music aids in the growth of the creative side of the youth. Cut, paste, put into the paper, click submit. 

    Looking out the window this sunny June day, listening to Clair De Lune and imagining what music would be if it was all a restating of existing pieces? A library of covers of covers, being remade all with the same DNA under their chords. Using AI for thought leadership by no means is a problem, it wouldn’t be called “Copilot” if it was not intended to be at the controls with you. The challenge with the advancement is that in today’s world, there was nothing there first to train it on, besides the voice of others. You can’t train a model on a voice that one has never built. 

    Thinking of a conversation I had with a friend yesterday over lunch, the myriad of topics covered, thoughts shared and perspectives explored. I chuckle thinking about the transcript from my one-hour lunch. What would have been the takeaways? From the words spoken, would it capture the sentiment as I felt, or as a model would anticipate a human to feel. I left lunch appreciative of the time someone made to spend catching up over a bite, learning more about their passions, drive and journey. The transcript would simply be the myriad of topics, which ultimately misses the entire point, and yet that transcript would be ingested into future outputs.

    When we think of what is a voice, how do we define it? A voice is not a style nor a format, it’s everything that goes into the brain power beyond the letters on the screen. For me, it’s the product of years of writing toward one person in thoughts that this might land with someone, somewhere. That mattering enough to keep going.  I’ve maintained my own domain since 1998 in times when people move to Medium and other places to monetize, where I am perfectly content with zero views. 

    How do I leverage AI in my writing? I use the model as a mirror, not a ghost. Leveraging years of writing is the difference between shaping output and outsourcing thought. Two fundamentally different things. What gets lost when we outsource thought is the power of human thought. The irreplaceable way one person sees something.

    What is a link or bond between one object, and only one? That is not connection which requires something real on the other end. In the age of AI, it’s easy for authenticity to be performed but it can still be felt. Often I see it when people are attempting to tell a story, and so often it’s the same verbatim content and often riddled with inconsistencies in the flow. Similar to when someone can’t speak to what they have written because it’s clear, they didn’t write it.

    The same inconsistencies with the flow are the blockers that hit us, the same for when we can tell connection is not there, the lack of investment in sharing genuine thought becomes simply an opportunity to scroll past. 

    If I were to ask Gemini to create something similar to Clair De Lune, it would give you the output requested. What AI can’t do – bring back the overwhelming feeling I felt as a teen on my first trip to Europe, aboard a Delta L1011, flying over the Atlantic, unable to sleep; from excitement, my father with the travel club as a chaperone, listening to Clair de Lune as I glanced out the window and closed my shade until the dawn that was eagerly waiting as we touched down in Frankfurt. 

    Be humble, be grateful, be true to you.

    Photo: Delta A330-300, Atlanta to Amsterdam — June 30, 2023.

  • Speechless

    Speechless

    I recently concluded a career conversation and called my partner to explain the emotion it brought to me. It was a feeling I had not expected to takeaway yet here I was with tears forming in my eyes. These were not tears of pain rather they were a release of pent up feeling of peace to be my authentic self in the conversation. I brought forth the energy I bring but even more, I shared openly about my life outside of work or what you see on the resume. My 2019 pursuit of Yoga certification to help bring balance to my mind, peace through meditation and challenge myself to a deeper understanding of myself. The high self vulnerability over the 10 weekends to accumulate the 200 hours with strangers being a big personal challenge to overcome as part of that self growth. 

    The story we tell ourselves versus the story we tell others. The undeniable reality that is below our perception that constantly forms how we interact with others as we cross paths every day. Similar to how I felt in the yoga class, the question of letting go of what doesn’t serve me and the feeling of calm it brought. In this career conversation, I shared my journey beyond the paper, beyond the script, and allowed space for the person to get to know me. My amazing love of Beagles with Dr Bailey in the family, my long term relationship with my partner and my immense pride in his self growth all came through.

    How this brought about the emotion to me, it was the feeling of psychological safety in a career driven discussion that afforded me this glimpse to share about who I am. I’ve struggled to feel seen, the loss of my mother to mental illness as she struggled to be heard, all which shaped my life course. For the first time in my career, I mentioned my partner by name in an early career conversation versus “they/them” . The person on the other end afforded the safe space and showed the genuine desire to know me, all of me. Openly acknowledging the rock in my life hit me hard, obscured for so long due to family and society, prioritizing the comfort of others over my authentic self. 

    I reflect back with admiration to people that shaped my life, who saw me and for those who felt the impact of the Human Element in their lives. I look forward to sharing more of the threads of humans and milestones that impacted the tapestry of my life.